How do I explain that which I’ve been building? For truly it is more of a tearing down. Disassembling my self as it were, as it was. And yet, on the outside there have been little to no changes.
My heart and soul have felt angst and sorrow in feeling such a strong pull or push to make alterations. To the point of occasional overwhelm. Yet, those very same heart and soul have not brought forth a vision of where to go, what to be. Instead, leaving us homeless, directionless. This sense is simultaneously uncomfortably lost and joyously free. Uncomfortable because my conditioned self wants to know who we are, where we are going and to what we have an allegiance. Free because we are unattached, floating, through life as pure potential. Somehow, the two aspects of this phase will integrate, allowing us to materialize the potential in alignment to our allegiance. But first a state of purity need be found and accepted. Not for what it DOES, but for the beauty of its essence alone.
Airy Fairy for sure, but still it tolls for truth and glory. Which is much more interesting than any practical opposition. What I have been building is a human life experience based on the merging of the spirit that animates the matter which is me.
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